Well Sam, I have deposited some more sponsor money from the parachute jump, its amazing how mych has been raised. It all goes to help hospice care for someone when they need it most. I dont usually put my thoughts on display as I hope that you can read my mind and know how I am feeling, what I am thinking. I am still far from letting go of you, dont think I will ever be close. You remain the missing piece of my jigsaw. My longing for you is intense. When you arrived on the 13th January 1987 you took my breath away, you were a massive shock to me and changed me forever. On the worst of days I cannot look at your picture, cannot breath, need to scream at someone GIVE HIM BACK, but you remain missing. My love goes out to you in the hope it will find you. mutter xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx